my health

A few months ago, I decided I didn't want a third child - mostly due to expenses, partially due to my health. I was "obese" after having Quinn, and I felt unmotivated to lose the weight. I had made a deal with myself that I would not try to conceive again if I was not back down to a healthy weight (based on my BMI).

Then I started Weight Watchers and working out with My Fitness Coach on the Wii. I have lost 25 lbs in the last 3 months, and I have 20 lbs to go to get to a healthy weight. As the weight dropped, I realized I might be ready to give pregnancy another try this fall. I'm still not 100% there yet, but I have always wanted 3 - even during the time I had given up on myself.

Pregnancy is also hard for me. I will be a 3rd time gestational diabetic if I have another. It will require insulin because it did last time. I may need it at week 4 or 5 already. That means checking my blood sugar 7 times a day and taking insulin shots 4 times a day AND following a diabetic diet.

I also lost my amniotic fluid with both prior pregnancies - at 34 weeks and 38 weeks. That is likely to occur again, so I will need twice weekly monitoring after week 32 or so.

I have had 2 c-sections so this will be my third, plus I have uterine varicosities (blood is pooled in that area internally) so I have a higher risk of bleeding out during the c-section.

That being said, I can work around all of it (I've done it twice before), and my OB and endocrinologist have said there is no reason I shouldn't do this all again. We'll just have to wait for my RE to weigh in and see what testing brings.

Thinking of all this makes me truly grateful for the two beautiful miracle children I already have! They are worth every second of every trial I had to face to get them.